Jenna's House of Idiosyncrasies Version 10.0 [Focus.]

So it's that time of year again. I'm moving back to Athens.

But lucky me, I don't have to start classes for another two weeks!

I am, however, moving into an apartment over the weekend with some very cool people in the heart of downtown. And I need your help. So if you own some sort of oversized vehicle, have giant muscles (I'm looking at you, Brizzoach), or even just a giving sort of attitude, ring me up or send me an e-mail and I'll put you to work.

What do you get? My undying gratitude and friendship. And if you get me on the right day a couple of months from now I might even buy you dinner. But don't you just want to do it because you love me?

Love Test stolen from Abie's journal.

1. You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

2. In the process of courtship, the approach that would make you feel irresistable is straight-forward, just tell you he/she loves you.

3. The impression you would like to give to your lover is optimistic.

4. What you hate most in your partner is that the person is ruthless, cold-blooded, and/or ironic.

5. The kind of relationship you would like to build with your partner is one that you care not only about the present but also the future with your partner, a long-lasting relationship that you can grow with.

6. You care about the society and morality, you won't do anything wrong after marriage.

7. You always want to get married, but in fact, you don't even know what it really is.

8. At this moment, you don't want to be tied down by a steady relationship, you just want to flirt around.

hmmm...

1.What is your full name? Jenna Iliene Tollerson

2. What color pants are you wearing? Vintage-washed blue jeans

3. What are you listening to right now? some commercial

4. What are the last four digits of your phone number? 9314

5. What was the last thing you ate? Cheesy Baked Potato hamburger helper

6. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? nelly queen purple

7. How is the weather right now? Calm and cool.

8. What is the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? smile, shoulders

9. Do you like the person who sent you this? I stole it from Sam, actually. Don't steal!

11. How are you today? My ear hurts. A lot. And I'm actually kinda depressed. Enough for Nathan, my Starbucks guy, to inquire into my well-being this morning. I think I freaked him out somehow because he seemed really concerned.

12. Favorite drink? Jack and Coke, Everclear and Coke, Bacardi and Sprite, Southern Comfort Lemonade, and Dr. Pepper

13. Favorite candy? belgian chocolate, gummy bears, chocolate covered almonds

14. Favorite sport? stopped caring about that.

15. Hair color? Light brown with gold highlights.

16. Eye color? Really blue.

17. Do you wear contacts? yes

18. Siblings and their ages: Heather, 27, Sarah, 17.

19. Favorite month? ummmmm November

20. Favorite foods? I wish I hated food. But I don't.

21. Last movie you watched? I'm half-watching The Mummy on TBS right now. Jesus this movie is awful.

22. Favorite day of the year? my birthday. I like presents, but I love attention.

23. Who is your best friend? You are.

24. Are you too shy to ask someone out? I'm just afraid of rejection, not really shy. I'll talk your fucking ear off, baby.

26. Summer or Winter? Summer. Summer is like a big soothing blanket that wraps around everything.

27. Hugs or kisses? I've said it before and I'll say it again: I'm not going to choose.

28. Relationships or one night stands? I just want to date and have fun and be young! And not be a huge slut. There is middle ground.

29. Chocolate or vanilla? chocolate

30. Do you want your friends to write back? eh. I'll be happy if anyone even comments because I don't think anyone besides the Kirbys even read this anymore.

31. Living arrangements? for just a little while longer, with my fam in Winder. Soon: Downtown Athens, Baby! With the coolest people ever!

32. What books are you reading? The Portable Beat reader edited by Ann Charters.

33. What's on your mouse pad? I've been using my laptop without a mouse for so long now I don't even remember

34. Favorite board game? Dictionary Dabble

35. What did you do last night? Hung out with my good friend Sam, came home, cleaned my room some while listening to Loveline, cleaned out my closet and found out I had been storing a bunch of space-comsuming empty boxes on the top shelf. What the freaking hell?

36. Favorite smells? The Candies I am wearing right now, Hugo, Rum, rain

37. Can you touch your nose with your tongue? I know that would make me a very popular girl but I don't think I want that kind of popularity.

38. What inspires you? Men. Music. Compliments.

39. Buttered, plain, or salty? Popcorn is just awful.

40. Favorite car? 1985 Volvo 240.

41. Favorite flower? Birds of Paradise, or anything tropical, really.

42. How many keys on your key ring? 8. Two different doors to my house; 3 car keys: 2 ignition, 1 trunk; two keys for work, and one for a padlock.

43. Can you juggle? nopers.

44. Favorite day(s) of the week? Friday.

45. Red or white wine? Blushed zinfendel. I don't think I spelled it right. Maybe I'm drunk.

46. What did you do for your last birthday? On the actual day of my birth I celebrated by taking 3 tests. But the following weekend I travelled to Nashville for the Will Hoge CD release party. :)

47. Do you carry a donor card? No. I'm a selfish bastard. Lalala.

48. Lifetime goals? To be lucky in love and money.

49. What is the first thing you think of when you wake up in the morning? "I just need 10 more minutes! 15! 360!"

I feel asleep at about 9 this evening, which would have been great and perfect if I had turned on the fan, put on my pjs or taken my medication. I hadn't done any of these things, so I woke up at midnight sweaty in my street clothes on top of the covers, my right ear throbbing like a mamma-jamma.

I knew I would keep waking up every hour on the hour if I didn't correct the situation, but I also knew that by getting up I risked not being able to go back to sleep all night. A paradox! I choose to get up briefly and take care of things and then lay back down and drift away! WaHoo.

Well, you are reading this now so you can see how well that plan worked out.

So now we are in my break from trying to go sleep. You know how if you try too hard at something, it won't work until you take a small step back from it? That's what I'm doing. Taking a step back from sleep.

I surfed around my roommates' livejournals and it made me remember how excited I am to get to live with them this fall. In contrast to a couple of weeks ago, I'm ready now for summer to be over. Sure I won't have my own room anymore, and I'll be stressed out by classes and deadlines and money, but I won't have to fight with my parents on a daily basis, I won't have to worry about gas money or a two-hour round-trip commute to work, and I'll have regained the independence that I relish so much. The awesome roommates are really just a huge bonus to all of that.

So I have a lot of preparation to do in the next couple of weeks. I have to put my name on the lease, move back to Athens, buy a bed, get my financial aid in order, and try not to hyperventilate. And thats just the tip of the iceberg.

Maybe that's why I can't sleep.

I'll be okay. I just gotta take deep breaths and dream of sexy rock stars.

Sleep sweet.

Go here. Join, write a profile, and then go to mine and click on "I'd do this person." I'll get popular, and that's always fun.

It's like the opposite of the application to date me.

Well, kinda.

Lester Burnham: When I was your age, I flipped burgers all summer just to be able to buy an eight-track.
Ricky Fitts: That sucks.
Lester Burnham: No, actually it was great. All I did was party and get laid. I had my whole life ahead of me.

I do not want summer to be over. I have no burning desire to get back to school. School, the way I remember it now, is stressful and depressing. It gives me chronic migraines. It doesn't leave me time to spend endless hours with friends or watch American Beauty over and over on DVD, or really think.

The decisions I make now will affect the rest of my life, or that is the propaganda. It's made me into a worrier, while being completely frozen by fear. Summer feels so static, like it will never end, and makes you feel that maybe if you put things off long enough, they will just go away.

Oh, how I wish that were true.

Would you ever date someone younger than you? within 2 years, yes

Someone Older: within like, 4 years.

Ever been drunk: Yes. Hello, I go to Georgia.

Been in love: nope

Loved someone who you knew you couldn't have: never been in love. Wanted someone I knew I couldn't have. Several someones.

Gotten in a car accident: yes, two. But I was only driving in the significantly less serious one.

Broken a bone: yep. my left arm. twice. Within six months of each other.

Had your heart broken: not yet. I'm looking forward to it.

Cheated on someone: nope

Been cheated on: no

Last time you said I love you to someone: today

Last time you cried: don't remember

Last time you laughed: today

Where do you see yourself in 10 years: in Athens, working for a good company such as [redacted] (my current employer) or for myself

What age do you see yourself married at? however long it takes to find the right one

Describe your dream wedding: I haven't really thought about it much except that I'd have Simon & Garfunkal's "America" played at the ceremony.

Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? why is this such a popular question on surveys lately?

If you could dye your hair one color what would it be: I really like my own natural color

Have you ever been skinny-dipping: nopers.

Do you eat chicken with fingers or with a fork? depends on what kind of chicken

Would you rather give or receive? silly question

How many homes have you lived in? 5, but if you count dorms 7

Do you play any instruments? nope

One pillow or two? a million

Do you get along with your parents? most of the time. off and on.

Do you drive? yes.

What kind of car do you have? my Dad's 1985 Volvo 240DL that I pretend belongs to me.

Whats your fav. colors? blue, gwen red, black

Do you work? yep. I love my job.

Whats your favorite food: pizza

Do you have braces: used to.

How many guys/girls have you kissed: a lady doesn't kiss and tell, dahling

When was the last time you went on a date: kinda never

Have you ever got in serious trouble? yes

Why is the sky blue: cause that's my favorite color

Who was your first crush: Uncle Jesse from Full House. And this guy named Trey who went to school with me in the second grade.

When you meet a person of your preferred sex, you first notice their: smile, jaw line, build

Are you the romantic type: yes. I'm a big fan of fate, defining moments, and all that literary dreamed-up fantasy that never really happens.

Have you ever been chased by cops?: kinda.

What's a secret you've never told anyone: I've said everything I'm going to say

Current Music: Rolling Stones, guess which song
Current Mood: too wired for 1:30 in the morning

Just now I found myself wishing I had a Craftmatic Adjustable Bed, not because my sleep doesn't go well on my futon, but because it would be nice to be able to type in a lounging position. My bed sort of does a fold up thing into a chair but that does nothing for your feet, and it's not even motorized! And now that I have wireless internet it would be great to be able to journal comfortably.

Oh yes, my life is primo difficult, but somehow I still survive.

I want to launch a new frontpage, but apparently some people are really attached to the cartoony house with the fading sky and the bouncing sun and moon. That layout is going to be a year old on the 17th, and I feel it's time for something different. However, I read somewhere that you will get tired of a layout long before your visitors do, so if you are really attached to it, now would be the time to weigh in.

Or, just stay silent. Never comment at all. Cause that's productive.

This is what my yard looks like right now. If you can't tell, that's all water. It's been raining non-stop all day, and it's been dusk since 2 o'clock this afternoon.

It's that funky end-of-the-world feeling.